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I'm in neeed of moral support as I'm about ready to give up. I am doing this alone and certainly with no one around physically to help me.

So... as usual, I had phenomenal beginner's luck and began astrally leaving my physical body on the first try. I used The Poppet's method. I was on a large bed with a cushion behind my back and my feet dangling awkwardly over the edge. I was facing north-east.

I was even interrupted multiple times and it was midday. But I still began doing it...

This was my experience, please note anything abnormal:

I did not try to train with the upraised arm due to shoulder injury, and the fact that I'm a partial insomniac. I did use the arm raised up once, just to see if I caught myself falling asleep, but all that accomplished was to make my arm "tilt" down an increment when I started to drift closer to unconsciousness. I'm just too aware of my arms moving, due to having demons/evil spirits play with thme while I slept in the past. (That does not happen anymore, thankfully, not for years).

Anyway, I was able to pretty easily reach the point of being totally relaxed, and just beyond the threshhold of sleep, without losing consciousness. I was keeping all mental activity Silent, I think that helped.

After attaining this state of total relaxation, I did indeed start feeling those powerful vibrations people experience. But, unlike how The Poppet describes, the vibrations were coming from my FEET, moving upwards, not my head, like it is supposed to.

Here began my first reoccurring problem. On the first time I'm describing, I conquered it with little issue. But, my heart began beating WILDLY right before the vibrations began. I was patient though, and it eventually calmed down, but my heart produced vibrations that skewed my ability to perceive the astral ones. (Or whatever the vibrations truly are).

After my heart calmed down, my aetheric hands began rising out of their flesh first. I could feel it distinctly and was excited! But what happened next was VERY disturbing and The Poppet nor anyone else mention this:

BIGGEST PROBLEM

Right before I began to leave my body, a very vaporous, shadowy hand and arm began to descend toward me from my left. I turned my astral head to the left I believe, or my real one was already turned. But I saw it. Not long after, my astral hands began to rise up.

And as my hands got about a foot or two up from my body, they struck some kind of opalescent barrier! It was like some kind of square prism, about coffin sized. It lasted only an instant, but my hands struck it and shocked my aetheric body. It hurt, I was instantly returned to my physical body, and the sensation faded quickly. I woke up partially, but was so resolved to succeed that I state in a semi-conscious state, and began to astrally travel again a few minutes later.

I may be wrong, but it is possible at some point the long black arm tried to touch me at this point. I believe I heard an electric jolt, like it had touched the barrier, and then a furious and pained hissing sound... I know this incident happened, but I DON'T know when exactly in the line of events. I believe it was between projections. Which is why I mention it here.

But then I raised only one astral hand, for the second travel, and hit the barrier again. I was shocked in my fingers. At this point, I again confirmed the existence of this field. It appears that it is some kind of barrier that both protects me from dark forces, but also traps me inside... I am assuming this. At any rate the second attempt to get out of my body left me very frustrated. And I soon was interrupted by family, lost vibrational focus, and woke up.

It has been two weeks since then, exactly. I did it on Monday May 18... I am electromagnetically sensitive. Wi-fi is gone from my home, as is the smart meter, but 5G has been threatening to murder me... and I went out in public later in the week on Friday. From then on, my state of mind has been much weaker, I can't focus as well to maintain Silence.

And I just. Cannot. Vibrate. For. Anything.

I get situated, but it is as if my body now understands that I'm trying to leave, and is STOPPING me! Every time the vibration, for instance, starts, I instantly have a massive amount of mucus go down my throat and threaten to choke me... this happened on the first try, but I managed to somehow stay in-vibration and swallow or cough it to my mouth. Now, when I do this, I INSTANTLY snap wide-awake, and my heart starts pounding like I'm having a heart-attack.

Speaking of heart issues, now, whenever I really start relaxing, even though my mind and spirit are calm and at peace, my heart starts pounding viciously. And it drowns out the vibrations. I can feel it stopping them...

And now my annoying neighbors have brought their abused dogs and their tractors to their barn next door. And are making as much noise as they are legally allowed to make. . .

Just yesterday I almost succeeded in getting vibration back, anyway, but I still run into the same problems. I haven't gotten to the point of Vibration. Each time I try to connect to the vibrations, I have weird hot/white/cold pains that are very strange and get very intense, at random points on my body. I also start to have issues with breathing, as breathing through my mouth causes the mucus to react, and breathing through my nostrils prevents me from ever vibrating. (On the first successful attempt on May 18, I figured out I HAD to breathe through my mouth for it to work best... and thus start choking on phlegm or whatever eventually)

Things to note:

I had a home-made orgone device with me on the first try. It is a square one made from an old herb container, of glass, with the resin inside being composed of sugar, matcha green tea, some copper fragments and a clear quartz crystal. It has been phenomenal as a tool of relief from the 5G radiation. And I can even hear its frequency. It's like a really, really high-pitched, major-sounding ring. I usually have it with me for practice, and it seems that it is interfering now, or I suspect it is.

I have tried multiple pillows and positions. One issue is that my feet start hurting if I lie too long in one position, as does my buttocks. It's so irritating!

I have tried this while going to sleep at night, but I always fall instantly asleep. I have two orgone devices I sleep with. Without them, I suffer from radiation and there's little chance of me reaching the point of actual near-sleep, as I stay wide-awake and then suddenly fade.

Last night I tried a dark magic ritual (3 nights of hell), and I believe I didn't cleanse properly afterword, because I suffered strange headaches and intense radiation ringing/vibration that kept me painfully awake, until I finally gave up and brought the orgone close--which did the job and brought relief. But it also forced me suddenly into a very deep sleep...

Apologies for the long post. I like being comprehensive and that often doesn't help.

My biggest question:

Does the body sometimes realize and try to stop people from astrally traveling, and is there a way to force it to stop? Aside from concentrating willpower? I'm depressed, and my willpower is sketchy at best, and it is getting worse with each repeated failure.

Can I astrally travel in daytime? Because the radiation is weaker during the day... And I have nowhere to go that doesn't have windows. My family are sunshine freaks. I am as well, and I actually sleep better in the sunlight, and get more active under moonlight, but the mosquitoes and flies make outdoor sleep... trying at best.

And what the hell is this prism barrier?!? I am imprisoned by this thing!? Any clues? I for some reason don't quite buy that it is the orgone alone...