If I had to put together every experience and emotion I have had in the past seven years I could honestly say that God is saying not just no but "HELL NO!"
That was an incomplete post I was going to put the one prayer I had. I prayed for happiness. I slipped into a major depression and I still haven't come out of it. I've heard the bit about "God only helps those who help themselves" I've been in therapy I'm still on pills I see a psychiatrist still. I've barely got my head above water now and that's because I've been living out of spite. In high school they literally made bets as to when I would commit suicide. Don't get me wrong I have tried but the bullets were blanks. I just recently made it to 21 and that outdates all of their bets. So now idk what I'm going to do.
But nobody wants to hear this sob story lets just move on.
Back to the original topic. I'm starting to even want to degrade down from gods to simply ANY un-human spirit who can at least hold a conversation.
Hi trytobelieve,
Have you not noticed yet, you're christian, yet you are on this site, now I tell you because I believe you were led here by fate. The 'one religious lie is as good as another' way of thinking is not the right way to go when you feel lost. I know how that feels, I felt that way when I thought the goddess was forbidden to me in this lifetime. I heard her call, I could feel the pull, I could see the connection, yet I thought she was forbidden to me. However, as I said in my previous post, after I was able to retrace my past lives, I gained a gift of wisdom. In all my past lives I served goddess, god, kami, deities, spirits, yet I never burnt in hell. No matter what god you serve, if you see them as a model and try to make yourself a good person regardless of the past, you won't burn. you say that you haven't met a person that has not lied to you. I tell you now, I do not lie. I know because I once found it easy to lie, but now, I am a priest of the goddess. Priestesses and priests of the goddess are forbidden to lie. You say that hope is all that keeps you going. Let me tell you now that no human is purely good or purely happy, content yourself with what you have and do your best to make yourself happy, that's all we can do. The hope you cling to, that may be hope for what? Hope that there is truly something above is hearing your prayers or hope that the people who you have lost hope in come from someone or somewhere better and that if you live your life to the most wholesome you can you can go to heaven? Or that there is someone who is understanding to you no matter what you have done? No matter what the hope is for, I'll tell you now, and please don't take offense, christianity is (a little) narrow minded. I don't want to belittle any religion and I apologise to all christians or any who get offended. Nowadays christianity is a lot better than it once was, but in my past lives, I have served as a christian priest, a pagan priestess, a shinto shrine maiden, a viking volva, a wise woman, an apothecary, a doctor and many others. I tell you now that even though they are better now, christians still do not see nuns as ordained clergy, do not accept homosexuals, deny other religions among other things. If you want to believe, like you say you do in the form of a christian believer, you must cast aside all of the old stereotypes like your current pope. Do not think of nature as simply his creation, but think of them as your connection to him; it should mean the place he created as a refuge for all his children. The world then seems almost like an extension of his spirit, then you will see god through every plant, breeze and drop of water.
Hi believer,
notice that I did not call you trying to believe. I read the second page just now, I'm not very tech saavy. Anyways, after everything you have been through, you still hang on. Don't think that god has given you a big 'OH HELL NAH!' You were given hope to survive. He also sent you here to us, we won't think of you as a burden, lie to you, listen to your problems just because we are paid for it. You have come to us because God led you to understanding people. ler the past go, live a new life, don't just think that we don't want to hear your sob story' b ecause if you are willing to tell us, we are willing to listen, when you feel like there is no hope or nobody who loves you, you can search up how to call on my angels and do it, you feel loved unconditionally, accepted reagrdless of what you've done in the past. i once felt lonely and felt useless, because I remembered past lives in which I had served my life and never done anything for myself and thought that no man had a happy ending and that we are all alone and we are so useless. But I died happy and realized that I hadn't served the gods because I have to, but because I loved them, and in a way what I did for them I did to myself too. I don't usually cry, but I cried. I never felt the love of parents, they were so cold, distant and only saw me as a burden with which they must bear so that they could fullfil their own ambition. It was the first time I'd felt something like it, and I felt it stir up emotions, on eof the things I had given up on, it's alright, we're all sinners but we are still loved, let all the pain go, if the angel summoning doesn't work, think of us, we are your spiritual family, you can say anything and we, or I at least, will accept you.
This is a bit off topic but mind telling me how you came to remember your past lives? I've been told that in past lives that I was part of a small coven and a keeper of secrets but this is something I would like to confirm for myself.
Thank you for your kind words. I'm so used to being ignored or being treated poorly that idk how to react.
words are not kind,
hearts are kind,
words are merely expressions of the heart
god id kind
god loves you.
he doesn't need words when he can touch your heart
Everybody seems to believe that their God is the one true God.
Everyone may believe whatever they wish. But a belief does not make it true.
Far too many members state that God is this,or God is that, and stating it as though it is fact.
It is a belief!
All the so-called Holy Men of the past have claimed that they have spoken with God. But always alone, with not a single witness.
In my own personal experience as a Wiccan, there have been times when the Gods spoke directly to me in words that I could understand, and there have been other times when they have communicated with me in dreams and in visions during meditation. One simply has to be open to their communications no matter what form it might take.
Ok, first of all, let's be clear, gods, angels, demons, spirits of nature, are not actually physical beings (I heard they can, however, under very special circumstances, manifest of the physical plane). There are forms of energy
That being said, when you enter into contact with one of them, it's through the filter of the human being's creative capacity, Imagination, in other words, your own mind.
So, in accordance to your own knowledge, the Divinity or Spirit will manifest in such a way.
Aleister Crowley said that the true Archangel Michael was indistinguishable from your own true conception of said being.
Let's take the more common example of angels, particularly, the Cherubim...most people imagine them and know them as fat little babies with wings...however, Kerubim (in hebrew) means "Beasts" and they take animal shape...most likely, chimeric shapes.
It's the same with gods.
Now, I stated before that the best (and easiest) way of communication with another being, is through your own mind, no matter what religious or magical (not the same) path you take. Those beings, made of pure energy, will take the shape in accordance to your own conception of it...the more you know, the more you study said being, the closer to it's true essence it will appear. So there won't be any kind of language barrier.
Now, other forms of communication are a bit more complicated...mediumship is one way, where a person acts as a channel through which a spirit manifest...this practise can be quite dangerous to one's integrity of the Self, and it's only to be undertaken by experienced practitioners
Then there's casual manifestations, which there are no way to know the exact conditions for it
And the last is evocation, a process in which you call a certain spirit to bind it to your will and command it. Now, you can only do this with lesser beings, not gods are archangels...
Before a "my god is better than your god" argument is manifested here, i would just like to say that beleiving in a power greater than myself is what my sanity hinges on. If i dont then the responsibilities of the world fall on my shoulders. Its a no-brainer. I dont know that i would quote Allstar Crowley verbatim as he is highly controversial and your point could become mute depending on the readers opinion of him. However, i do beleive that the more aware we become of the spirit world via study and practice, prayer and ritual we are shown glimpses of opportunities of our path. We need only step up and take them with confidence and without fear.
