why it scares me

I do not believe in pre-destiny. But I do believe in old bonds being there and revived as they pull to one another naturally until they meet again--kindred spirits. But it all depends on your personal beliefs, I'm not here to shape those. I believe in life before and after this existence, but some do not.

I understand what you mean but I haven't completely separated the two in my mind. I have an ancient memory of the mother of the children an my bf but no memory of the children. I have a few other ancient memories, some people I know now I knew then. I guess thats what I mean by having difficulty with the predetermination. Its almost like I'm stuck with certain people and some I don't care to be stuck with.

I hear you on that one! There are ways to disconnect from such people. You have to sever the bond and it can be done through ritual. But you really need to make sure that you want that and that it is a good idea. Something to get a few divination attempts on (asking various people, guides, or doing it yourself) before making the cut.

This is confusing me. I'm reading the master key right now. Trying to figure out where the line is between my fears etc manifesting and what I came here with. Lots to learn.

A person can not read while dreaming, I gues that its the same with AP, by the way if you AP you can do more than just walk but fly and teleport, and in the astral plane you dont half to stay on earth, you can go anywhere any when

I have done some visiting with people living and dead . Someone showed me a place that was some sort of representation of parallel frequencies and such. All the conversations in these two places dealt with past lives and higher self choices. I knew the dreams were not just dreams after I found out that the people I was talking to had died and the things they talked about were related to their death. Very complex stuff. I wish I was educated on what I'm dealing with so that I could be more clear and helpful. Its been a lot to deal with!
p.s. it sucks not to be able to read in dreams or ap. Street signs would really be handy!

Yeah I agree on part of the not being able to read in dreams, as I had this letter in a dream I had and as I was trying to read it I was struggling then a man told me what it said, strange dream! XD