michael88, I don't believe that using demons for revenge and giving up on your beliefs because of things that didn't happen (What you wanted to) is a good idea. Manipulating demons for your own use is something that can cause backlash and upsets what you might summon.
If you want something done, you need to work on this yourself and not rely on outside sources. Demons can be helpful, but mistreating one is wrong.
There are many different views on demons so a lot of it does depend on the source of info. If you really do your research, you'll notice a lot of re-occuring themes. If you follow those re-occuring themes you'll start to notice that, reguardless of dogma or religious definitions, many different paths are talking about the same magical/spiritual concepts and the same deities/angels/demons but just have different names or terms for them.
From my research and experience, I've noticed that a lot of the judeo-christian concepts have some truth to them but their views tend to be very distorted due to their ”us against them” mentality.
Just follow your intuition.
As for ”killing” a demon.. I'll say this: energy never dies, it only changes foRm.
Although I have heard of entities/spirits/deities being banished so far from our realm that no trace of them has ever been felt or heard of again... But it takes powerful energy and skill to be able to accomplish that.
michael88, after reading your bio, I see you've played with fire in the past and gotten burnt. Why would you want to do so again? You say you have nothing to lose, but the truth is that there is always something to lose. There is more out there than demons, and other ways to fix your path, if you feel the one you are on is the wrong one of broken. Whatever path you chose to walk, you should study the basics and improve your skills before summoning anything. If you are weak, it may not work, or worse it may work and back fire in ways you can't possibly imagine. Magick works from the inside out, if you don't feel you are controlling what is going on inside of you, you won't be able to take control of the world around you.
Lyceum makes a very good point. You should first work in developing your own strength before working with spirits.. Especially demons. If you are not fully in control if yourself then how can you expect to control spirits that could be potentially dangerous?
I think part of the problem is that you called on a demon. They bring a wrecking ball to your entire life, and maybe a few lives afterwards, its right up there with curses in that respect. There are other ways to improve your karma and they all are vastly more effective. But it would be far greater for your spirit and your karma if you stay true to what you believe and find the answer there. If something of what you discover here seems to feel more right deep down, then I would say try something from here, but anyway, leave demons out of it. Go to church, explain what you did, and see if they can help remove the negative effects that calling the demon brought in your life.
Do not waver from who you truly are, no matter what,
BrutTorhildr
All of the above pot i subjective belief and does not necessarily represent any truth of the matter, nor is anyone's experience with ANY spiritual being generalisable to another person. Everyone will have different experiences.
