The Coffee Shop

HI I HAVEN'T SEEN YOU AROUND IN A WHILE HOW HAVE YOU BEEN?

Feeling a little anxious. I have surgery in a week from today and life is definitely going to change after that. I'm not sure how I feel about everything yet. I'm taking it as I go, I guess.

Classes just started at graduate school this week and I'm already swamped with work. I'm nervous about that as well. I need to start writing the introduction and methods portions of my thesis soon but I'm really clueless on where to start with most of it. I have until about March to get my thesis completely written, and while that seeeeems like a long time away I feel like I'm counting down the hours.

That makes me worried about going to university at all.....

I'm equally interested in everything, and I can't imagine eventually having to do a thesis for something that, now, feels like I can't say wholeheartedly that it is what I want to do as a life long career.

I don't even know if magic could be a life long career.

But I hope your fiance heals soon!! And school treats you kinder.

My mom recently had surgery and did everything she was advised not to do, causing her much pain now, which I wish she didn't have to go through, but I guess that is the direct cause and effect karma that most western yoga moms preach but don't practice anyway LOL

My husband got me Panda Express today and said Thuraday and Friday the office will get our carpet fixed. He said he will have everything prepared by then. I do not think I will have internet for those two days since we have to disconnect and move the motem and router. ): But hey, new carpet is a huge plus! <3

Out of the hospital and recovering. Everything feels so surreal right now. Still in a bit of pain; my incisions hurt the most, especially in my belly button where they cut deep. Supposed to drink 4oz of fluids every hour but I can't keep up with it- it seems like too much. At least the dry heaving has stopped for now!

I've been in one of my near-total-seclusion episodes this past week and while it has been necessary (and nice) to enjoy myself and be creative with abandon, I would like to try and integrate my solitary hobbies more into my daily life, rather than having them take it over near-completely.

Steps to take would be making them social hobbies or just spending time with people as I pursued solitary hobbies and trying to enforce more moderation and variety within my day to day activities. I believe this will be healthier for me overall, and it might even set an example for other poeple. Who knows?

Now that I have a computer I can finally get back on. HUZZAH! Also, I've been very very well-ish. Just looking for jobs and waiting for some jerk to finally call me for one. Like ughghghghghghg. Ive put in over 30 applications.

*Pour's cup of sage/mint in tea cup*

*Ahem* Today was decent, I'll have a three day stint at work coming up, so I'm not sure if I will have much time online aside from a couple of hours. Also, If you have a teaball and stove top kettle, a few mint leaves and crushed cinnamon makes a relaxing cup of tea.

Also personified, i wish you luck with your surgery. That can be a scary thing to face.

I'm really trying to get back into spiritual practice and being a part of a spiritual community, but I'm finding it really hard to actually involve myself in either. I have certain practices that are pretty much integrated fully into my daily life that I can't "shut off" but beyond that, I've just been super out of it.