I need a teacher :/

Have you payed close attinson to what you are doing?

YES):

Until you can except that the impossible is possible your mind should be like air or more less the wind you can't see it but you can feel it and you just know that it is there.

Well not everything is possible. I can't jump to the moon for example, breath under water without an air tank, survive a fall from an airplane at 10,000 feet without a chute, though that has happened, once.

You don't need alot of "stuff "to actually do magic.
Remember to allways ground,center & most of all protect yourself before you start eny magic.
You can ground & center through meditation.
Get you a note book (just plain no words on it).
Start taking notes & study,
The more you manifest the the more you will understand & allways focus on your intent before you start a project.
Then in time you will "get the hang of it".
Hay you don't need alot of weird things to do magic, walk outside i bet your yard is full of things like a rose (used for love)or rosemary (used for protection.
There is alot you can use.
Learn & study them.
If you need me let me know, k
Dove

iso agree with you on that my parents would think i belong in a mental hospital hahaha

Tools are aids only! It is not necessary to have any tools,candles, broom-sticks,wands, or anything else. if your parents think you are insane keep your secrets. I know that when I was young my parents thought that I was insane! But I grew up; and proved them wrong. As you will! Keep your secrets. The note book is a good idea.

Nicely said....
I have been keeping notes for years.
Every dream,every experience i've ever had sense i started my journey.
Soon i will put all my notes in a book, then i will pass it down to my children.
Dove

I agree Tools are just levys to help you do something you can not yet do on your own but as you get better you will outgrow such things. I can do allot without spells or words now.

Well that is a good point you see most spells call for candles and not everyone can get thoes!