Poetry

this song goes to my home boy u just died name matthew ratliff born october 25 1991-died july 10 2008


i wanna die take me to the other side
i wanna die so i can fly
i wanna die take me to the other side
i wanna die so i can fly

i wanna die so i can have everything answered
what happend to my father
why was i a basterd
what is thunder
is it really god bowlin
the night times a blanket and the stars are the holes in it


hey matt i know u there u will alwas be my homie and my bro i miss ya and thiose fuckers will pay

Time stands still as if it werent real,
Time doesnt exist where we are real,
An illusion of the mind some say,
But are they telling the truth for today?

Time stands still, now is it real?
Time is created by our minds at will,
But is it illusion or is it not,
We can determine that with a thought

most people know who avenged sevenfold are so i dedicate this song to rose




Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These's streets we traveled on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'll do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
(a melody, a memory, or just one PICTURE)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
(a melody, a memory, or just one PICTURE)

Seize the day or die regretting the time You lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

(guitar solo)

So what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again? Whooooah
So I never want to leave you and the memories OF us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time You lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here
Don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)
(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)
(Silence, you lost me-- no chance for one more day)

this is what i wanna do most of the time




Suicide Hotline, may I help you?"
"Yea, uhh, Well, I'm about to fuckin' kill myself"
"Listen, ya don't wanna do that, okay you don't wanna do that, okay?"
"Im gonna uhhh..."
"There's so many fuckin' reasons why I don't even need to be here anymore, Imma put a slug in my fuckin' head"
"You don't wanna do that, you wanna be on earth, okay?
"Fuck that shit man, I gotta gun right now"
"Put it away"
"And I got it right under my chin, man fuck that"
"Take it away from your chin"
"I'm gonna fuckin' blow my head all over the ceiling"
"No, you're not"
"Fuck this shit man"
"Hey, just talk to me, okay?

It aint no point to me wakin up
Everybody's time I'm takin up (Noo)
I got nobody, there aint a shoulder near
I can't stay here and it's colder there (where?)
I don't wanna look back 'cause its gonna hurt
I slice my wrist and It's gonna squirt
For me, everybody holds the hate
I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake
There's no roads to take, I'm in a circle drive
Bustin' at myself an' I'm tryin' to survive
I'll dissapoint you, and I will let you down
I aint got many homeboys comin around
You don't understand, so dont say you do (yes, I do)
I swear I'll put a motherfuckin' slug in you (now now.)
I'm the only one, the lonely one
At home alone loadin' the gun, thinkin' why not?

"Why not? Why would you wanna die? Ok, Ok, you have feelings, inside your head, ok? I understand that. feelings lead to depression, When you have depression, you have a lonely void inside your heart, ok, and your heart means everything to the world, ok?"

I got court comin' up, I stoled a truck
I got a bitch pregnant and i'm broke as fuck
I wanna get high but I got piss test
I'm always first name on top of shit list
Get this, the witch has made my chest
it's permanent nightly visiting nest
There aint no clothes that I look good in
I'm like the motherfuckin' big red train that couldn't
I got no family, I stoled they shit
restraining orders, an' I still wont quit
I hit rock bottom, and then I fell in a hole
and then I fell through the floor, of that hole some more
I've been missin' for a year, nobody's lookin' (I am)
I got beat down an my shit tooken (Ooh)
I look ahead an all I see is more of the same
All this self-inflicted bullet hole, pourin my brain

"oook, I understand that you're in pain, ok? I understand everything you're going through, I've been there myself, ok, now, your pain is my pain, alright? And I feel your pain, And I wanna be your friend, just me and you
Friends."

I dream about cuttin' heads off wit a shovel
The dreams are gettin serious, think I'm in trouble
I dont hold memory for more then an hour
i'm tired as fuck, and i'm drained of power
I aint halfway there an im all out of time
I'm like a crushed lightbulb, all outta shine
I been all around the world an no place is home
I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome
I'm butt naked, i been jackin off, gettin' drunk
It's my last hours alive, who gives a fuck? (me)
It dont matter, I'm doin this shit in the garage
Tryin' make it easier for them ta clean my head splage
This bitch I loved, I hope she finds me
Still up in the chair wit my thoughts behind me (Wait,Wait)
I'm about to do IT! (noooo) (A beep)
"Can you hold for a second?" (Wait, Wait)
(Gunshot)


"Hello?"
"Hey, whats up?"
"Where you at?"
"Right down the street."
"Wit who?"
"My girl Shannon. We were wonderin' if we could stop by?"
"Well, shit, yea, Come on by"
"Really?"
"Yea...Hey Hey..Hey"
"I know bring some blunts, Alright."
"Uh huh, aight, bye"

here we go,
stop this show,
chopy words and a slopy voe,
shot gun,
operea,
lock and load,
cock it back and watch it go,
mama help me,
ive been cursed,
death is rolling in every verse,
a candy pane on his brand new herse,
cant contian me nosy works,
fuck this hurts,
i wont lie,
doesnt matter how hard i try,
half the words dont mean a thing,
and i know i wont be satified,
so why,
try ignor him,
make it a dirt dance floor again,
say your prayers and stomp it out when they bring thatg cours in.

Its claws wrap around you,
Its poison reaches your way,
It tries to hurt and cause you pain,
It has started to rule over you

It holds you in place,
It parlyzizes you with fear,
It wont let you look away,
For that is what it fears

Its power overrules you,
Its strength overwhelms you,
Its will can hold you,
Its mind is too strong for you

The strength to rise from the pain,
to continue at all cost,
The strength to prolong all the shame,
Knowing that you've lost,
The strength to smile, when all you feel is anger,
to substitute bad days, for the best ones you can remember,
The strength to say 'I'm lost' when your pride has blocked your sight,
to say 'please love me', though I've never done it right,
The strength to say you love them, knowing there may be no reply,
to stay by their sides at times, when all they do is cry,
the strength to try again after many times of failing,
to finally open up after many years of waiting,
The strength to fall in love, though sacrificing your heart,
to keep a loved one close while knowing you've grown apart,
The strength to say ' I love you' when all else has gone wrong,
to keep on waiting for you..... regardless of how long.

Hidden in the darkness,
Hidden from the truth,
Lying in shame,
Feeling like you've failed

The power is overwhelming,
But you can't outlive the shame,
Bringing poison to the land,
It lasts for eternity

The will grips tighter,
The pain gets worse,
It feels like a a snake,
It wraps itself around your remorse

The might is strong,
Holding you tight,
Its a prison cell,
It causes too much blight

Yes I did it and I'll do it again
It doesn't matter if I am your best friend
I don't think so
You're not that smart
Over and over it breaks my heart
The cycle continues time for your crime
The pain comes back in an ugly design
Her makeup smears
The tears that she cries
Over and over every night

Emotional swords slash my soul
And now the pain takes control
I think about you
I think about me
Think about the way that it used to be
I need a bottle
I need some pills
I need a friend
I need some thrills
A shoulder to cry on a friend to depend on
When life gets rough
It's like a fight every single day
It's always easy when you have it your way
Deep in my heart
In the depths of my soul
My selfish ways are out of control
I'm sorry that it comes down to this
I punch through the wall as I break my fist
The makeup smears
Tears that we cry
Over and over every night

The darkness rises,
It reaches for the sky,
Brining blight to the land,
It is the very end,
But light is shining through the dark night,
Revealing the truth and what is right,
It is too distant for glee,
It cant fight on forever,
The darkness covers over the light,
The light shines through with great might,
Fighting the way to victory,
The light triumphed over the darkness and ended its blight