I've read this before,but it's not till recently I felt the way. I'm soo greatful the Gods rewarded my hard work and I want to honor them,but my hard works not done. Just a little more then I'm good. Reading this definitely put it into perspective,and surely they do understand...
By the time of my moving, which is still kind of happening, I asked for the spirits/spiritual beings in my old house if some wanted to come with me, promising a new altar and that also I'd take good care of them, in a way. Getting here I had no time or resources to do any of that. Reading this actually calms me down a bit, as for me I thought I was being selfish and with that, indeed I felt that guilt and shame.
Now things are working better, and soon I'll build that altar I promissed, and this thread surely did and will help me as I keep on going with my practise. So, thanks for this, Isa... I'll sure remember it...
Re: Losing Touch Spiritually By: Jorune
Post # 8 Sep 03, 2016
We all undertand! Do what you need, but always touch that spiritual side when life becomes too much as well, like seeking solace in something.
They call it escapism but I like it as a way to recharge and creatively think about things :)
I legitmately wanted cry because of how relieved I felt reading this.
Thank you so much.
I've been going through this magick withdrawal because I've felt drained and guilty that I haven't been able to pledge myself to daily or at least a scheduled pace. Tonight I wanna try and pick up my book of Modern Witchcraft to see if I can hop on the rails again.
I've come to a point where I feel my spirits understand that I've been... numb to magic, for want of a better term. Some of them are even nudging me to get back into it; to pay more attention at least, and I can get behind that. When I get off in my own little world, nothing else seems to exist. It takes an outside source to pull me back from the "abyss" most of the time and I think some of my spirits realize that's unhealthy, but want me to walk out on my own rather than try to do it for me. I've begun to notice there are times where I have this honed mentality where I only notice the base-line for things and other times where I notice the intricacies of emotion and energy.
I'm going through a bit of a lull right now in my spiritual practice. I'm finding it harder and harder to make time for my devotionals and to feel energetic when I do them. When I work from like 5am-5pm, by the time I get home I am tired and moody and cranky and the last thing I want to do is crawl in front of my altar and rush through a devotional if I don't mean it. It is really reassuring for me to come back to this post and to remember that I can focus on my life too, and that my spiritual workings don't have to always come first.
Re: Losing Touch Spiritually By: Agiel
Post # 13 Nov 05, 2017
I've gone through this.
To me it was to the point where I couldn't even work with Artemis. I felt so disconnected from everything and everyone. I felt like I was the only thing that exists. It was horrible and frustrating.
Now knowing what to do, think or feel. But eventually it went away. I started getting closer and closer, all it took was having the will power to do such.
I recently went through a spiritual disconnect, and it honestly sucked. At first, I felt terrible. But then I realized that it was simply time for me to take a break.
For months I just went the natural flow of everything. A did a little reading here and there, but I didn't try to force myself to do anything. I focused on school, my job, and my social life more than my spirituality.
It took several months, but I'm finally getting back into the swing of things. And because I didn't force myself, I feel ready to tackle any new challenges I may face.
I think everyone goes through this at least once. Just remember that it's normal and it will pass :)
I've actually been going through something similar as of late, and it caused me to take a break from SoM and my spiritual practices almost completely. I had a few negative experiences within the community, and that caused me to really need a break from everything and start to re-evaluate whether or not I want to continue on my path or start with something new. Now that I've visited the site again though, I've realized that I can't just throw away my bonds and experiences because of a few negative people, and that I shouldn't let these things hold me back from my personal growth. That's one of the reason I actually wanted to join the coven, because I first found this path through my love for nature. Magick came rather easily to me once I discovered it, and I really fell in love with the supportive community around here and all the knowledge being shared.
I hope that with joining this coven I'll continue to feel more inspired with my practice, and that it will finally give me the courage to come out of the shadows and practice more openly without worries or reservations.