Here's the deal. I'm really into this guy. It was very strange because I never thought twice about him until I had a dream about him. It's difficult to describe but in the dream the feeling of just this deep love was surrounding us and I couldn't see his face but I knew he was 'mine'. When I woke I still couldn't think of who it could be. Then out of the blue a face popped into my head. It was a guy a knew from a shop I go to. I didn't know his name at the time. Later I got to know him a little more and discovered he was into me too. I'm incredibly shy and had a hard tome adjusting to this. Never had I ever felt like this for someone who felt the same way. Anyways, after a while we tried getting together but every time we tried either our timing was off or something got in the way. It was like this since last January. Then in november his job moved him away and I didn't see him. We texted and kept in touch. But I felt really empty without him. Then a few weeks ago he texted me and told me to go to where he used to work and when I did he was there. He moved back. But here's the trouble... While he was away met someone. They're sort of dating nothing serious yet but it's breaking my heart. I tried to move on and I always say things happen for a reason but I can't shake the feeling that he's 'mine'. Then when he surprised me by asking me to come see that he was back...he seems to still feel something too. But he's with this girl and he thinks she's amazing and he's pursuing her. I don't want to lose him. I miss the way he would come and see me at work and I miss his touch. I just don't know what to do. My world feels so empty. Those few months he was away I prayed and wished and casted that he would come back and finally get our timing right. Well he's back but we still have that obstacle....what should I do? I'm in so much pain I can barely stand it.
I understand it hurts. Been there, done that, brought back a shot glass...but the best thing to do in this situation is to let it work it self out and work on you as a person.
If you honestly believe you two are meant to be together, you will be. I don't think the dream gave you a well detailed time line, did it? Just relax and try to look at it this way...
Our souls need to learn things before we are ready for other things. While it may hurt you to see him with another woman, he needs to. He may not be ready to be yours, and not being ready will only make you miserable.
It sucks, it hurts, you probably even want to crawl into a hole and disappear from the world entirely...but it will pass and you will be ok.
Thank you. I never thought about that way. Though, any suggestions on how I can stop feeling so miserable and just be able to go on living my life until that day comes?
