only me

I'm falling backwards
But at least I won't land on my face
Because I know you won't be there to catch me
You said it yourself
I'm sorry
Am I pushing your buttons again?
Ha
I'm just trying to figure you out
You know you're really cute when you're mad
And I want to figure out the truth
You don't miss me a bit
I can see that now
I'm too much of a trouble-maker
And you know I don't care
I'll be loud if I want
You still don't understand
Never a 'we'
Me and you
So it couldn't be me
That you're referring to
There's nothing to miss if you can throw it all away
No reason to be jealous over what is not yours
so tell me how is it your bad day
I'm the one who had their heart handed back to them shattered
I'm the one losing sleep at night
You want to play games?
I'll play with you
But just so you know
This is one battle you're going to lose
Because we're no longer fighting over who belongs to who
Your weakness is my strength
You thought me an idiot didn't you?
Pretending I was stupid
I was just playing along
You really didn't think much of me
You really couldn't see
The light that shines in me
I don't need to play victim
although it seems that now you want sympathy
You already know you have mine
Or why else would I apologize all of the time?
For things that are not my fault
I'll carry the blame
And somehow it's impossible for you to do the same
pathetic
You think I can't stand on my own
But in reality
I'm mentally stronger than you
If only I had listened when you tried before
No what if I never invited you back to my door?
What if I didn't care?
Back then
You see
Once again
It's still my fault
Only me
What if I had no kindness within
I don't think this would be the case then
But I cared
Where i should have left you on the floor
I picked you up and helped you
And in the end I ended up hurting myself again
So you see you are not to blame for this
Now I see it was only me
You have no fault
A perfect angel
So I guess I sit in the bad guys chair
Luring you into my lair
I tore myself apart
By letting you have my heart
But you played no role
You cannot take the blame
For this is only my shame

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