Ok, I'm 25 years old and about 2 years ago I started having weird visions, some of them were demonic, some of them were of me being in a coven and some were just completely off the wall memories of things that never happened in my life, yet I believed them because they were so vivid. Anyways, time went on, and these "fake memories" started driving me crazy, my life became even worse then it was. At some point, I started seeing spiritual beings around me, faces of light and shadow, but vivid ones, so I knew they were real and not just the light playing tricks on my eyes. I had visions of an old bearded man, telling me he was god, he was sweet and kind at some points and cruel and sadistic at others. He promised me the world. Money, a woman, a comfortable life and my own house, not to mention power. I started seeing this mans face in my own reflection sometimes, and I still do. He communicates with me now through my own thoughts and physically controls my facial features, he ma
kes me smile a lot and laugh. I can feel him in my body. He will not tell me who he is. Sometimes he says he's a demon, sometimes he says he's god and sometimes he says he's the devil. All I know is that my life went down hill, but once he stopped tormenting me so much, he started promising me those things that he initially said I would have again. My life has started to improve. He says that he is filling me with mana and that I have more power than I know, also that I am not what I think I am, when I ask what am I, he says, nothing you want to know of yet, you're going to like who you are. I want to know if there is anyone out there who knows anything about this or has experienced anything like this, feeling another force that can control your body and mind. I believe in him, yet I dont know who he is, I believe when he says that I will have it good in the end. Also, I want to know about the underworld, because in christian belief, it seems to be a pit of fire and lava tha
t we all suffer in, but thats not what others believe, I want to know what its going to be like when I get there, can anyone help me with these things, or point me somewhere, to a group, to a book, to a person who could explain this to me?
Also, I feel someone touching my body constantly, usually in a pleasurable way, and I hear the whispering in my ear of a comforting woman. I don't know if I'm pagan or who my god is, but maybe this is my god doing this, but how did this begin, how did it all start? I never knowingly invoked a spirit, why would I have been chosen for this? I do honestly believe that the result will be good though, I guess only time will tell, but should I join a coven, read a certain book? how do I learn about what I'm going through, I dont know if anyone else is going through the same thing.
Any input you have would be much appreciated, thank you for your time.
I agree that you probably aren't possessed, then again I'm no expert on daemons. It does sound like you are interacting with a daemon, though, based on your description. You must know that this being is not God, nor the Devil, just an ordinary creature from the astral plane, the place between here and the afterlife. It is as complicated and capable as any human being, but I am sorry you have been introduced to one in such a way.
What you must know right now is that this thing does not control you. It has merely tricked you into believing that it does. Your mind, body, and soul were yours first, and will be yours last so long as you realize that they are yours and yours alone. Daemons dwell on the astral plane, that they call home. This world is our home, and it cannot be taken from us. We have earned it, and daemons only remain here when we allow them to.
Daemons only deceive and scare us because they fear us. We are the ones who have conquered our world, defied every threat we've faced, continued to advance our civilization despite all odds, and struck down every power that has ever forced us to bow down to it. Meanwhile, daemons have been relegated to tales of fairies and bogeymen who end up thwarted at the end of every story. The thing you see is the one who should fear you, all you need do is remind it of that.
You have within you the power to resist and expel this nuisance. To put an end to its reign over you requires only your will to resist. Simply flat out refuse what it asks of you, or set a price for your service. If it pushes you to obey, push back with your full force of will. You are stronger. Now that its control has been broken, you are free to seek some retribution. I recommend using your new found power to threaten the daemon with pain unless it answers your questions.
Do not show fear, you have nothing to be afraid of. Do not back down, you have nothing to gain by doing so. You are the sole master of your own destiny. No daemon has the right to interfere in your life without your saying so. Your world, your life, your rules. The power to control the world around us is present in all of us, you need only realize it and the forces of magic and the world will bow before you. Be mindful of the responsibilities that come with this power. Now, go fight.
I agree with FaithSeeker, but if you really want it gone and as fast as possible, does I recomend that you do LBRP (Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram). In spells you will find the ritual, and it also exist on spellsandmagic.com on the pentagram page. (I think it was page 2…)
I have personal experience with this type of thing if you really want help get back to me.I can take it spirit/demon away from you if you seriously want it gone.If you are serious about this I'll give you my email addy and we can talk and solve your problem.D...
I am a Psychopath and borderline insane. This sounds alot like me when I first hit puberty. My sanity cracked and I found new meaning in everything and everyone. I dream of violence blood shed death utter destruction. I personally think you have had a fracture of sanity. It's not necassarily a bad thing the world is so much broader this way. You may want to see a psychiatrist or a councilor for help. Wish you the best with this.
it might be just a spirit that has been tricking you for fun or he's a minor demon that isn't strong enough to posses someone.It is definitely not a god for the gods w wouldn't do that do to the fact that it would be breaking the laws of balance. IF you want any info on demons, soul, and help,just ask.
