This morning while I was lying down, and practicing my breathing techniques I had a vision. I know slot of people may say it was just a dream but it wasn't I was fully awake, I could feel my body resting on the floor and I was able to think about the vision as I had it but I couldn't open my eyes/"wake up".
In the vision I'm both looking out through my own eyes and watching from above as a spectator. I see myself with the duel vision sitting on the ground with is some sort of hard packed mulch with my legs curled to the side and my arm supporting me, I'm wear tight and semi-revealing clothes and smirking into the darkness. Around me is a circle of people, all watching me, smiling but not nicely and its about that time that I registered that I wasn't dreaming and I started trying to figure out how to get out of there, I also realized that "I" wasn't in control of my body and no matter how I tried I couldn't move a muscle. I was forced to watch my body stand in a provocative manner and walk in the same way over to one of the men surrounding me. I saw myself start to touch and kiss him and I knew I was screaming at myself to stop but my body just kept smirking and touching and the sight was making my stomach turn. Finally I just slammed my mental "eyes" Shut and pulled away from the vision as hard as I could, after that I just opened my eyes and I was back laying down on my back and fine. I've spent all day trying to distract my mind and convince myself it's my imagination but I can't. I was then and am still now scared by what I saw. Can someone please help me with whatever this is? Any advice helps even "You ate too much sugar and hallucinated" would be welcome.
Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read this.
Liza
To me, this vision seems to be a mental expression of your sexuality. What happens here, is that your subconscious (the provocative you) wants to become a little more open with your sexuality, thus the revealing clothing and smirking into darkness. But the conscious you wants to reject the notion, because it doesn't quite seem to be your thing.
This could also be a vision instructing you to let go of the "good girl" image that you may have going on. However, it's really hard to determine without more details from you. The lack of control of yourself may mean that you should just let go and let something guide you, or that you may be on a puppet string.
Anywho, take it as you will. There's always room for improvement on my statement. That's for true.
(P.S. I'm no expert, but I do try and grab meaning from all kinds of detail.)
What is your typical attitude towards people, or just life in general?
Are you a "good person"? That is, do you perform deeds out of kindness?
Do you interact with spirits at all?
I'm not one for specifics to be honest. I just understand the details as they're written. Basically, describe yourself, and tell me why the dream worries you so much.
Also, it's my time to sleep, so I'll have to talk more tomorrow. (2 AM PST)
I'm friendly but not very open, I generally don't trust someone until I know them but nor do I distrust them.
When it comes to friends/animals in need definitely. I'm always willing to help. I love to help people.
Not that I'm aware of.
The vision worries me because it was as if I was posessed, I didn't want to do what I was doing deep down, but on the outside something was forcing me to believe I liked it. (does that make sense?) I can be a sexual person when I want to be but not like that, and it scares me. Also the fact that I am young (Under 18) and all the men surrounding me were adults...
Hope this helps. Sorry if it doesn't.
THank you,
Liza
Well, I also read through your profile and Chakra test. Understandably, being insecure would be a good reason why this vision would scare you.
"I didn't want to do what I was doing deep down, but on the outside something was forcing me to believe I liked it. (does that make sense?)"
Yes it does actually. This leads me to believe that this may be an "alternate you", if you will. If the vision is of the future, this might be who or what you grow up to be. But, if you looked as young as you do now, this might be another personality that might surface soon.
"I can be a sexual person when I want to be but not like that, and it scares me. Also the fact that I am young (Under 18) and all the men surrounding me were adults..."
Depending on the age of the men (if they weren't old farts), I'd say this is somewhat of a want of older men. For example, some younger girls in this generation tend to go for the older guys who have success or good looks. If any of the gentlemen in this vision are described like that, then you may have a tendency to chase older guys in the future.
Like I said before, I'm no expert, but this is what I can tell ya.
If you really want to get in-depth about it without spilling it to the rest of the world, PM me.
