I am in a bad place mentally and emotionally. I don't want to feel this way and I don't want to cause harm. BUT( I have a burning desire for revenge, which is not a good thing. So I decided that I want to unbreak my heart and relearn to love someone again. Not the same person that broke my heart BTW. Above all else, what I really want, is for the person who broke my heart, to feel the same pain and rejection I am feeling. So any help would be greatly appreciated. I don't want cause anyone to die. I'm a newbie, but I have very strong belief.
I have been trying very hard to do that and at times, I think I have conquered it. Then the littlest thing will set me into a downward spiral again. Then I obsess over revenge until my headaches. I don't want to be like this. The past is the past for sure. He was a part of my distant past and resurfaced last June after 17 yrs. I thought it was fate. All it was, was another chance to use me and make me believe his lies and throw me away when someone new and better came along. I'm not upset with her, this isn't her fault. For the last year and a half, everything I did was with him in mind. Now I'm floating in a sea of rejection and horrid heartache, while he goes on with his life, like nothing happened. I'm trying very hard to focus on improving me and my relationship with my husband. I'm alone all the time, my children are grown and gone, my husband drives truck. All I have are my animals. I just want to be happy again. Right now I am focusing on weight loss spells. I had lost 100 lbs when I had a a goal, HIM! I need to get back the focus I had then.
I would suggest a healing spell instead of weight loss spells. You seem to know the recipe for losing weight if you managed to lose 100 lbs in the past.
You need to not be so hard on yourself and realize that you deserve to be happy with who you are and not do this for someone else. Once you are healed, love and light will automatically follow but you need to establish that place of peace within yourself first and realize that you are important. Forgive him for that will allow you to get go. Anger is such a wasted emotion as it just eats US up and does nothing to the person we are angry with generally. The best way to seek revenge is to get on with your life and heal your own self so you can be happy.
A genuinely happy person draws people in like a moth to a flame and the only way to ensure you are happy, despite the obstacles you may face, is to make sure you hold the ability to make you happy.
Yes, exercise is good. And I did exercise. I started working nights, which I love. I'm a night person. The moon, the stars, all the things of night are wonderful. If I'm under the moon and bathed in its light, I am at peace. I feel content, the world is right. After all this happened with HIM, I lost my motivation, my will. All my hopes and dreams seem gone. And the pain is still so fresh. I'm wonderingcright now if I should even be think about wanting him to hurt too. Last night I got up to let the cat in my room and stepped on a corner of a box and have a puncture wound on the bottom of my foot. Can't walk on it and now will miss work. So once again, karma nailed me for something.
Good, but I'll tell you one thing, what you believe is what it is. If you think love is something that's important in your life, then it is. Karma only works when you believe in such things, but for some people it doesn't have any effects.
