I don't know what I am.... My abilitys keep on growing and I feel like I'm going to lose control one day. I don't know what to make of them. I have the ability to make seals and use them although I don't know why. I blank out when I draw them. My dreams tells me the future and something big is going to happen to me and I'm running out of time. I can spirit walk.... I'm still trying to get a hang on that. I'm an empath. That grew in last year. I am able to get visions and I see unknown shadows. Lately my mother has been acting crazy she claims that she is the creator of everything and that my father isn't my real father.... I try to convince myself that I'm not crazy. I see unknown people always trying to protect or kill me in a dream. And my mom said that I killed a demon girl by breaking her neck in a dream.,..she was right. The girl was trying to make me go to the bad side.... But I'm not bad (I don't think) its just confusing and I am gaining new abilitys all the time. Help me? :(
I would suggest you to remove bad thoughts from your mind, and keep looking at positive impacts rather than looking at negatives, if you'll get indulge in negative part you'll started making situation worse. Try some meditation like visualize white light around you, and make yourself believe that the light is spiritual and protecting you, and this white light around you is hiding wrong peoples around you and if someone beats you in dream then visualize white light is healing and everything bad is a past about 1000 years ago and believe none can find you again.
It sounds to me as though your mother would benefit from evaluation by a professional counselor to determine what is really going on with her. This does sound less like a magical problem and more like a psychological one on her part. And it sounds like she is convincing you to believe her delusions. Remember that dreams are just dreams. You don't kill a demon in a dream and then have that be real.
As to being an empath, that isn't some special ability. Everyone, with the exception of sociopaths and psychopaths, has some degree of empathy. It is a normal part of the human psyche.
And secondly I would suggest you to look at what chakra balancing is, because you are loosing confidence, and What you're doing is affecting your mom, so make your solar plexus(3rd chakra) which increases your confidence and your root chakra(1st chakra) which shows our relations with mother earth who gives us a place to live and who have power to control whom to live or not.
First I want to say that you are NOT a bad person, it's just bad things are happening to you. I just joined this site today but I'm going to try and help you with what I know. I myself am an Empath and it can get confusing feeling other peoples emotions and sometimes even their thoughts--yet that is a different talent. Seeing visions and 'unknown shadows' both are things you must learn to balance and be able to control by starting with a meditation session and grounding yourself to clear your mind. Focus on the space in between your breaths and search for a part of the mind that is calm and collected. Spirit walking is tricky, my friend can sometimes do it but again meditation is a good way to begin anything involving that she finds. As for your mother I do believe that a mediator needs to be brought in. Someone outside the family to consul or maybe discuss what is going on and some of the issue. And lastly, to kill a daemon girl by breaking her neck in a dream means she in some form had to be real. Don't be afraid though, because everyone here I feel will and can be able to help you if you wish. Blessed be by Isis and may her wings protect you!
