Hello I'm looking for someone to help me train in the art of magic I would like someone experienced in illusion magic and conjuration I am also looking for spell books if anyone has or knows of any
With as many people in the world as there are, not many are willing to teach.
If you are looking for a teacher, I would start by browsing the group's tab and exploring the covens and finding one that you like. I would try searching for help there, as people may be more willing to help, and covens are a great way of starting out.
There is also, of course, the internt to research what you are trying to learn. As for the online spell book, SoM started out as an online spellbook, and how many spells in the spells section.
Well, if you're serious about learning how to do magic and with starting from the rock-bottom then you don't start out by casting spells, you start out by learning how and why magic works.
You see, there is no such thing as an "easy" spell or a "beginner" spell. One either understands how magic works and has mastered the basics...in which case the magic will work..or you haven't done that sort of work..and no spell will work no matter how "easy" it seems.
Casting a successful spell involves much more than finding some spell on the internet or in a book, saying some words, lighting a candle, waving a wand of any of that sort of thing. In order for magic to work you need to understand how and why it works in the first place. Grounding and centering, visualization, focus and intent, energy manipulation, etc are all necessary first steps to even begin to have a chance at a spell actually working...and more importantly to prevent a spell from back-firing on you.
So, my advice for anyone who is truly serious is to start by reading a few books and practicing the exercises those books will give you. Once you have mastered the basics you won't need anyone to give you spells, you'll be able to create your own spells that will be far more effective than anything you find on the net. Here's the books I suggest:
"Before You Cast a Spell" by Carl McColman
"Spells and How They Work" by Janet and Stewart Farrar
Raven, sounds like fatigue. Meditation, if done deeply can take a lot of energy. Generally I find that consuming a lot of water before helps, and then after. You can also try grounding meditation to center yourself.
Mental exertion can be just a tiresome as physical. Remember to take care of your body.
