you have antisocial personality disorder. as whiteraven said morals and ethics are man-made, you simply didn't develop a moral system like most people. I too have antisocial personality disorder. unlike you, however, I avoid illegal activities. I don't go out of my way to cause harm, I just don't care if someone else is being hurt. you cause the harm personally. truthfully, your's is closer to the natural state of if you can do it you should.
fiveup, i clearly remember you mentioning your strongest element is fire. Like other elements fire generates different energies. It can be protective, guiding, enlightening, warming and purifying. But it can also be destructive, scalding and blinding.
Is it wrong that you're letting the destructive energies of this element get the better of you? That's not for me to say. But if you're questioning it, then you need to look deeper.
Like you, i'm leo and I know rage and understand the emotion that triggers revenge. But someone very wise once said that an eye for an eye would make the world blind. And loss of sight is the last thing I need. The law of the universe says that you get what you've dished out. So while negativity may bring you instant gratification, it will hurt you in the future.
I'm sorry that you got bullied. It's a horrible, soul shattering and degrading experience. Use your fire to protect yourself before harm comes your way. This way you will lower your chances of being bullied. And if negative thoughts like revenge cross your mind, raise the water element in you and give yoourself the chance to cool down, before making your next move.
Allow me to let you in on something. Nothing is more gratifying than watching a wrong doer stew in his own karma. Like I said, if someone does something, right or wrong, it comes back. By taking revenge, you will teach a wrong doer a lesson or two, but you will also be taking his negative deeds or karma onto your head, which you will pay for.
If you're ok with that, then it's cool. If not, then rethink your strategy. Damage done is damage done. You cant undo the past but you can create your future.
While my personal opinion might differ it really comes down to this one simple question. Do you believe there is anything wrong with you? Despite my beliefs on the for mentioned topic I believe that no matter what the most important thing in life is to be who you are and accept yourself for who and what you are. Though be mindful of your actions and the consequences that follow. Others may dislike you, ridicule you, or tease you but that is because they do not understand you as a person or who you are. Trust in the fact that you are the only one that could decide what you believe and think. Also because I don't know you and because your post is so limited and tells us so little of all of who you are I couldn't dare try to put a definitive label on whether you are good or bad, right or wrong etc. JUST BE YOU...!
I definitely think you could use some work on your confidence as well. Many times negative feelings and desire to harm stems from anger within due to an uncomforableness with your own self. Dislike in yourself will cause an unhappiness with everything around you. So like many have said, you need to find that confidence aka "love of self".
Many people go through this in their life, and when they find that confidence, they no longer feel the need to lash out at others.
I always post on my phone. I don't have the time to sit on the computer for a few hours everyday, but I use the spare moments I have during the day and night to come here. Doesn't it suck typing on a baby keyboard? Lol
yep lol, i can't use pc because of my parents packed it back for 8 months lol, i use the mobile net but my parents dont know it.
God, i can do anything to get my PC back.
